Writing this post feels really weird. Never in a million years would I have thought that I would feel sentimental about leaving Pennsylvania of all places. Yet I'm noticing myself trying to memorize every last corn stalk, and even though I knew that I wasn't going to be seeing my family, friends, and my pets for a year, I haven't really realized the significance of that until now. These are the people and places that I've been surrounded by for the last 17 years and it just feels bizarre abruptly leaving everything. I know that my departure is going to be one of the most bittersweet things I've experienced thus far.
At the same time though, I am more excited than I've ever been before. I'm going somewhere where I've never been, meeting people I've never met, experiencing a culture that I've really just seen a fleeting glimpse of, and being surrounded by a language that I can't quite understand that well. Whenever I think about it, its like a million billion butterflies are suddenly in my stomach. I feel like I'm preparing to go on my first great adventure, and hopefully it won't be the last. At the same time of all those emotions, I'm deathly afraid at the same time. Mostly about school, although going to a new school is always a scary thing in my opinion. And the language! Oh, the language, seriously French people talk way too fast, I don't know how anyone in that country ever has a conversation with anyone else. I also have no idea how I'm ever going to learn it. AFS says it only takes a few months, but I think they're lying.
Even though I'm having a bunch of doubts and fears about my upcoming journey, I know that at the same time it will be one of the best experiences I will ever have in my lifetime. I'm ready to embrace all of the good and bad things that may or may not come out of this experience. I know that not many people get to have an experience like this so I'm not going to take advantage of any of it. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm going to miss Pennsylvania and all the people who I know and love dearly, but I'm not going to let those things hold me back. I only have a limited amount of time on this Earth, we all do, and I intend to not waste a moment.
And I don't know how to end this, so bye, and don't ask me for my blog link. Bookmark it or something! I love you guys! <3
At the same time though, I am more excited than I've ever been before. I'm going somewhere where I've never been, meeting people I've never met, experiencing a culture that I've really just seen a fleeting glimpse of, and being surrounded by a language that I can't quite understand that well. Whenever I think about it, its like a million billion butterflies are suddenly in my stomach. I feel like I'm preparing to go on my first great adventure, and hopefully it won't be the last. At the same time of all those emotions, I'm deathly afraid at the same time. Mostly about school, although going to a new school is always a scary thing in my opinion. And the language! Oh, the language, seriously French people talk way too fast, I don't know how anyone in that country ever has a conversation with anyone else. I also have no idea how I'm ever going to learn it. AFS says it only takes a few months, but I think they're lying.
Even though I'm having a bunch of doubts and fears about my upcoming journey, I know that at the same time it will be one of the best experiences I will ever have in my lifetime. I'm ready to embrace all of the good and bad things that may or may not come out of this experience. I know that not many people get to have an experience like this so I'm not going to take advantage of any of it. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm going to miss Pennsylvania and all the people who I know and love dearly, but I'm not going to let those things hold me back. I only have a limited amount of time on this Earth, we all do, and I intend to not waste a moment.
And I don't know how to end this, so bye, and don't ask me for my blog link. Bookmark it or something! I love you guys! <3
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